The tick of time
Getting older has always got to me.
I remember turning twenty and wishing I didn’t have to grow up. It seems silly now. Next year I’ll be thirty and I don’t feel ready to be that old.
Do I fit my age?
You too may have felt this race against time. Thinking you need to have life sorted by the time you reach your twenties, thirties, or forties.
I know how easily I compare my age to my salary, my relationship status, my roles in church or any other stuff I might be able to put on a CV.
'Do I fit my age?' is so often my question.
And that’s when I tend toward despair. I’m not as productive, accomplished or sorted as I hoped I’d be. As my friends. As those other Christians.
I plan how I'll change. But the same sin and failures - the same me still exists. Just with a more few grey hairs and all those plans lying broken around me.
God’s plan for my age
But God’s plans aren’t a simple equation like getting older means getting richer, or better, or having more influence.
As God grows us in age, he’s growing us into the likeness of Jesus (Romans 8:29).
Maturity as a Christian doesn’t look like a growing life CV. It looks like increasing dependence. Broken plans and a broken spirit (Matthew 5:2).
I'm not saying don't make plans. But to avoid disappointment, don't pin your hopes on them. God has better ones.
So, however we try to use our time, we should remember that God has more than our calendars to draw us closer to him.
'Even to your old age and grey hairs I am he, I am he who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you.' Isaiah 46:4