Too weak to get out of bed?
I struggled to get out of bed on and off for over two years when I had Chronic Fatigue. I still struggle when I sometimes relapse into a lump of tiredness.
Why would God reduce me to this when all I want to do is jump off the sofa and live my life for him?
Enter Joni Eareckson.
Eareckson has been unable to use her hands and legs for over fifty years after diving into shallow water. She’s concluded this:
Because I go to God with that earnest dependency and requirement of his grace, every single day – I take that back, no – every single moment, I experience the sweetest, most precious, most intimate union with Jesus Christ.
Her weakness - her inability to do the most common tasks - has pushed her into a deeper dependence on and intimacy with her Father God.
And she wouldn’t trade this for any amount of walking.
Isn’t this what God’s doing in each of his children?
Waves of Weakness
“I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11
God’s not promising to save us from bodily harm but plans to rescue and keep us – to bring us closer to him before welcoming us home forever.
He doesn’t need our actions. He first wants our souls, our hearts, our affections. And he will use illness or disability to do just that.
Charles Spurgeon said,
‘I have learned to kiss the waves that throw me onto the Rock of ages.’
If Chronic Fatigue is the wave that throws me against the Rock, then I’ll learn to kiss each salty swell.
Because only in my weakened dependence can I ever begin to live for God.